Isaiah

I’m depressed. Sometimes i contemplate if i should stay living. I know that you people will say yes and have your reasons for it. The reasons for living seem to get slimmer. Sure, before this i didn’t cling onto life but it wasn’t because i was suicidal. It’s because i knew life’s uncertainties with sometimes life ending sooner than expected like the book of ecclesiastes said.I guess I’m this way because of my previous situation…… i blame myself mostly for it now that I’m a little older. I guess a month ago when i get hurt by someone i say what hurt my instead of what caused that person to hurt me. I’m not sure what to ask at this moment. I don’t know what to do.i wish i wasn’t such a coward. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like half a person. Empty sometimes. I have alot of mental issues because of this event…. even after all this i still don’t know why I’m childish. I guess one thing i can say is pray that God helps me find a way to mature mentality and possibly any other area in my life. I don’t know what to do though….

Received: May 25, 2020